oops...
i screamed at a student yesterday. it felt really horrible. but he is a really horrible, disrespectful, unpleasant child. he came into my strategic class late in the year because he was expelled from another school. they don't tell us why--i guess it is better that way. he was fine for about 2 weeks and then it got very unpleasant very quickly. now he is like poison in the classrooom, seriously. it feels like that.
now, there was a lot of build up to the screaming. one important thing to know is that my strategic kids had been in my classroom for almost 3 hours at that point. this boy was looking like he was going to get into something (if not a fight, then a heated exchange of words) with one of my other students, who is a confrontational bully. the confrontational bully wouldn't move very far away so i had to keep on eye on them at all times which was irritating.
this boy also curses constantly, and when i say "watch your language" he says "sorry." it is really obnoxious and unpleasant. he curses at other students, too. and says f*** a lot.
so i'm sitting there at my desk with these students right in front of me when the one boy says "i could have had donna at the beginning of the year if i'd wanted to." [not her real name].
i lost it. i slammed my hand on my desk really loudly and yelled something at him. i know i didn't curse at him or call him any names, so i think i said something like "that was innapropriate and disrespectful. i never want to hear anything like that in the classroom again. you do *not* (another hand slam on desk) talk to people that way."
he responded, "i said i could have her at the beginning of the year. damn, you're acting like i'm talking about sex. i am just talking about her being my girlfriend." now, i knew that this was a load of BS so i just ignored it. i repeated (calmly) what i had said and then told him that i was referring him to the office. but i was kind of upset about it and it didn't feel good. the other kids totally freaked out and got quiet for awhile. i was just hollering at the top of my lungs and i probably looked pretty stupid.
i talked it over with several teachers and the vice principal who is sort of my confidante. i felt a lot better about it. i also felt better that the kid didn't come to class this morning. i wouldn't have wanted to, either, if i was him.
today was infinitely better with my strategic class than yesterday. it's so funny--when i don't set limits, they push and push and piss me off pretty badly. but when i do set limits, they often meet them. they certainly did today. they also knew that it was a privilege to hang out after the test, which i was prepared to pull from them at any moment if it became necessary. but they did what i asked and watched their movie and it was good.
so, mixed bag lately. testing is NOT fun and that is why my kids have been in my classroom for 2.5-3 hours a day for the last 4 days. next week is the same. it's all good though.
now, there was a lot of build up to the screaming. one important thing to know is that my strategic kids had been in my classroom for almost 3 hours at that point. this boy was looking like he was going to get into something (if not a fight, then a heated exchange of words) with one of my other students, who is a confrontational bully. the confrontational bully wouldn't move very far away so i had to keep on eye on them at all times which was irritating.
this boy also curses constantly, and when i say "watch your language" he says "sorry." it is really obnoxious and unpleasant. he curses at other students, too. and says f*** a lot.
so i'm sitting there at my desk with these students right in front of me when the one boy says "i could have had donna at the beginning of the year if i'd wanted to." [not her real name].
i lost it. i slammed my hand on my desk really loudly and yelled something at him. i know i didn't curse at him or call him any names, so i think i said something like "that was innapropriate and disrespectful. i never want to hear anything like that in the classroom again. you do *not* (another hand slam on desk) talk to people that way."
he responded, "i said i could have her at the beginning of the year. damn, you're acting like i'm talking about sex. i am just talking about her being my girlfriend." now, i knew that this was a load of BS so i just ignored it. i repeated (calmly) what i had said and then told him that i was referring him to the office. but i was kind of upset about it and it didn't feel good. the other kids totally freaked out and got quiet for awhile. i was just hollering at the top of my lungs and i probably looked pretty stupid.
i talked it over with several teachers and the vice principal who is sort of my confidante. i felt a lot better about it. i also felt better that the kid didn't come to class this morning. i wouldn't have wanted to, either, if i was him.
today was infinitely better with my strategic class than yesterday. it's so funny--when i don't set limits, they push and push and piss me off pretty badly. but when i do set limits, they often meet them. they certainly did today. they also knew that it was a privilege to hang out after the test, which i was prepared to pull from them at any moment if it became necessary. but they did what i asked and watched their movie and it was good.
so, mixed bag lately. testing is NOT fun and that is why my kids have been in my classroom for 2.5-3 hours a day for the last 4 days. next week is the same. it's all good though.
posted by Allyson B. at
12:08 PM
1 Comments:
um, you're amazing, cause that happened to me waaay earlier in the year. and i felt so bad about it. but you know, it happens because teachers are not perfect and just human beings.
you've got the patience of saint.
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